Five years is a long time. Five years is half a decade. If you get a woman pregnant, and flee the country, when you come back, you'll have a four-year-and-change-year-old. If you are in jail for five years, you'll be in for long enough to lose every shred of decency (and male virginity) you possibly could. Five years is enough time to grow a beard that rivals one of the frontmen from ZZTop in its luxuriant length.
Five years is 1,825 days, 43,800 hours. It's long enough for you to lose a lover or two, and plenty of friends, for parents to fall ill. Long enough for life to pass you by.
I mention this because I am still returning from living in China for five years. Of course I wasn't in prison, or fleeing a pregnant woman, or anything like that. I was there by choice. I was there because I thought it would get me somewhere. In the end, here I am, back where I began, years and years ago. It remains to be seen whether my time in China actually got me anywhere.
But I digress. It's not the time there that's terrifying -- it's returning to a place that seems both foreign and familiar, the place you knew, and feel you should still know. But one that you don't.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Florida in the summer time is like living in a sun-filled sauna. By seven thirty in the morning, it's often 90 degrees. I used to sit on the steps of my parents house in the morning and play guitar, and I'd be drenched in sweat after just a few minutes as I went inside.
As a kid, I loped about like Tarzan, clad only in shorts most of the time, running wild with my friends. I grew up in Hernando County, somewhere between suburbia and the old-time Gulf Coast. It was close to idyllic, the nature around us, and its most supreme manifestation of which we were enamoured: the island. I grew up on a lake, with a canoe, and an island in that lake at my disposal. The crown jewel of my lake, my island on the lake, was my tree fort on the island in the lake. And growing up I never thought about the key thing that made the Robinson Crusoe fantasies I carried around with me an everyday reality: It was hot all the time. Even in the middle of winter, there was only about a month that you couldn't go swimming.
And it wasn't just hot: It dripped. Everything dripped, like a Dali painting. In my adopted Chinese city of Shantou, it was the same. If anything, it was more humid. And wetter.